this life.....

[Dabrit320]

jus needed something to vent on......man...i'm so stressed out right now. I live in an abusive household, my mother is not emotionally supportive...Jus today I came home and my parents just started arguing over stupid stuff. I really have quams with my dad, honest to god, I hate him. I will never love him again, if his life was hanging on a string, I wouldn't help him. It's sad that I feel this way, but when I'm living in such an unstable household, while he is the cause of it, there's nothing else to feel. It almost seems like my mother is bi-polar, because one minute she'll suck up to me and buy me things, but the second I talk about my brother, she's ready to crack her fists and go at me. Same with my dad. My brother is a loner, and I feel sorry for him, but I just don't want anything to do with him or the rest of my family. I've been annoyed and pushed to the point where I just want to live out on the streets. It's ashamed because I love my mother more than anyone in the house, in fact she's the only one I love, but it seems she just doesn't return that love. She gangs up on me, calls me ugly, and every name in the book. She thinks I don't care, but it hurts me when she makes those comments. Everyday I come in the house with a frown on my face because I just don't want to be there. I get mad when I have summer vacations, days off of school, because I have to be here, and just witness terrible things, and suffer through rough situations. I just don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to about this stuff. I wanted to tell my friends to get it off my chest, but I figured that wouldn't help. I guess it's kind of pathetic im posting all my feelings here, but it's the only thing I have. I know a lot of people have problems, me included, but I just don't want to go through this anymore. Even though I have only two years to live here, I'm just anticipating the day when I can just move out and never make communication with any of them again. Anyone have any suggestions on how to deal with this??

[raybeck]

I feel for you, I really do. Surely there is a pastor you could talk to in your area??? You need to be able to speak with someone that can possibly give you professional advice. There are lots of nice folks here on Frappydoo and I'm sure each one will lift you up, but you have got to find someone on a face to face basis. There are many churches that have counceling, etc. that could also be of assitance, you don't have to be a member to talk to someone. Talking to a friend would be better than nothing, but you truly need a professional in your situation. Best to you, and please let us know how you are doing...please,find some help!!!

[Justawoman]

What Ray said. If it truly is that bad and you have no recourse and no pastor to talk too, talk to your school counselor. I am sure someone there would help you find a foster home while you finish school. Just don't keep it bottled up inside.

[dreuby]

These sites have some contacts for teenagers and young people who want help with various problems.
http://www.bygpub.com/books/tg2rw/problems.htm
http://www.teenadviceonline.org/
http://www.allexperts.com/getExpert.asp?Category=1458

You'll also find others if you search in Google. But I agree that if you can it would be best to find face to face counselling. Meanwhile we're all here for you.

God bless